Pretty

I managed it! Can't find my glasses and can't bend over but I did it! I'll feel proud until I find the glasses and can see what they really look like!

Is this hormonal?

 I realised that the MA I want to do is over £8000 this week. For the past month I've been communicating with MMU and friends about the post grad study that I've always planned would happen and I thought was finally going to happen. But while on hold with admissions, I realised I'd misunderstood the fees for part time study.

I'm never going to be the academic I always thought I would be. Eventually.  

I've been crying regularly all week. I say I don't know why I'm crying but it's because I feel my life is worthless. That I've not yet reached my potential.  Today the husband said the "hormonal " thing.  

Yes. I am hormonal. I'm also sad.  

Ouch

I honestly think menopause would be easier to deal with if I wasn't still having to pick blackheads while plucking chin hairs.

A new demographic

I was excited to turn 50. I spent the year I was 49 thinking, "I won't have to give a shit about anything anymore!" "I'll be able to do what I want!" 

It's a nice number. It gives me the confidence to not care about what anybody else thinks. Although I guess the therapy helped to. 

Plus I got my first invitation to a mammogram. 

Woohoo!